Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's day

Seeing roses everywhere. Couples hand in hand... When i saw that, i was smiling to myself. I'm just happy for them who found their love who they can share their lives with.

What a lonely day for me, still thought that i will be working night shift so that i wont be affected so much. In the end, they want to let me to go home early for the night. What for man... I don't even have a girlfriend to spend with.

The past 4 yrs of valentine's day was fun. Cracking my brain to think of presents n words to write. Making roses until i sweat so much. Buy roses and thinking how to romantic. Haha. Seeing your valentine smile and happy is the best reward you can have.

Anyway wish that you can enjoy this day with your date and be happy. Others is not important. When you love someone, most importantly is to let him/her to be happy. Men cannot be so selfish. All the best...

P.S To those i can't make it to go out with tonight.. No offence. I just want to be alone. Thank you and have fun!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The Dependent Origination

Where is the source of human grief, lamentation, pain and agony? Is it not to be found in the fact that people are generally ignorant and also willful?

They cling obstinately to lives of wealth and honour, comfort and pleasure, excitement and egoism, ignorant of the fact that the desire for these very things is the source of human suffering.

From its beginning, the world has been filled with a succession of calamities, over and above the unavoidable facts of illness, old age and death.

But if one carefully considers all the facts, one must be convinced that at the basis of all suffering lies the principle of craving desire. If avarice can be removed, human suffering will come to an end.

Because of their ignorance, people are always thinking wrong thoughts and always losing the right point of view. Clinging to their egos, they take wrong actions. As a results, they become attached to a delusive existence.

In reality, therefore, it is their own mind that causes the delusions of grief, lamentation, pain and agony. Be the master of your own mind. Control your thoughts and not let your desire overule youself. If the latter happens, in a moment of folly, you might do something that you will never do in your normal state. Thats how most of the murders and raping of women happens. When these happens, you will be due for heavy punishment.

There is 3 kinds of main karmic effects.

1. Bodily karma: intentional actions through the body.
2. Verbal karma: intentional actions through speech.
3. Mental karma: intentional actions through the mind.


Mental karma is considered to be the most significant because it is the origin of all other karma. Thought precedes action through body and speech. Bodily and verbal deeds are derived from mental karma. E.g. When you have an evil thought of using a baseball bat to hit someone, you might think its alright as since its just a thought and you are not doing it. But one day when you see that person and when you really get angry, this mental thought will cause you to really hit that person. If this thought doesn't exist in your mind, all these happenings won't be able to take place!

Alot of people are ignorant that the fact of a single small evil thought in your mind will still plant a bad karmic seed. They think that since nobody will know what is on their mind, so its alright to have evil thoughts. Every thoughts and every actions are being recorded down. Believe it or not. When the day that you need to leave this world comes, you shall know what i'm saying is true or not.

Whether you want to grief or happily leave this world is all up to you....

Monday, February 4, 2008

隨緣

Here is a story that i wanna share with you......

Long time ago... There is a man who is supposed to get married with his girlfriend on this certain date. But when the date comes, his girlfriend left him and married another man.

This man became so devastated.. He fell ill and couldn't get out of his bed. His family members used all types of methods to help him but to no avail. A monk came by this area and heard of this story, so he decided to help this man to get out of his misery.

He went into his room and ask him to look into a special mirror. In that mirror, he saw a woman's corspe lying naked by the sea. Then a man walked by, take a look at the body, shake his head and left.

The second man walked by, took off his clothes and put it on the woman's body and walked away. The third man walked by, he dug a hole and carefully buried the woman's body.

The monk said to him," That woman is your girlfriend's past life and you are the second man who gave her your shirt. So the reason why both of you will be together in this life is because she is just returning you the favour.

But for the third man who buried her, she needs to repay him for her whole lifetime and that is her current husband... After listening to it, the man finally become enlighten and recover from his illness....

For many of us, when our love ones leave us, we are often trapped in deep misery. But always remember this story as for the one who left us, they are just returning a favour or you are returning the favour. Your true love will come one day... Lets wait for that faithful day. What is yours, shall be yours. Nobody can take that away from you. 隨緣............

Sorry for the broken english.. Its hard to translate a chinese story to english. Good night folks.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Tears

I used to drop alot of tears whenever it comes to relationship problems. So many types of mixed feelings. So silly that i wanted to end my life..

I guess thats just part of growing up. Understanding love and experiencing the problems of love. Its been a few months already. Hope that you are doing fine and feeling happy. You will always be part of my prayers. Keeping you safe and sound. Thats the end of my first love story. 1514 days. This will be my last drop of tears for you.... :'(

When i cry again, i won't cry for myself. Those shedded tears can fill the ocean a million times over. From now onwards, i will only cry for others.....